Happy new year, friends! I just got back from a 3 week vacation and holy moly – I feel like I need a vacation from my vacation because physically? I’m beat. However, mentally, it was very much needed and so good to have that time away.
On December 17, I checked everything one last time and then turned everything off, went to see Star Wars with my husband (SO GOOD!!!) and then on the 18th we packed the car and drove for three days from Texas to Washington to spend the holidays with the in-laws. I didn’t check email. I didn’t check Basecamp. And it was wonderful.
All of this time off gave me a lot of time to just be and to think about this new year. I’m not a believer in resolutions but I a couple of years ago I came across the idea of choosing a word and I loved that concept. That year my word was Quality. Last year my word was Survive. As in, in the face of grad program, my business, and new mommy-hood – I just wanted to survive.
Survive, I did. However, there were a lot of bumps and bruises. Lots of second guessing. Lots of battles – the biggest of them all against Post-Partum Depression, which is a battle I’m still fighting. Which brings me to my word for 2016.
In all the surviving I did last year, I feel like I lost myself a little bit. At key moments I second guessed myself and didn’t trust my own intuition. I felt I was doing but not living, not being.
So this year in when I change that.
I will take care of myself – because I can’t be the best wife or mother if I’m not taking care of myself first. I will trust my instinct and intuition when it comes to my business – no more listening and doing what so and so said, I will do ME in MY business and if I fail, at least I can own my failure because I will have stayed true to myself. This is the year I will find myself again and just do me.